A very close friend of mine that I've known for six years is going to be a mother. This has rightfully shocked my brain into realizing that I have now entered the age bracket that is suppose to be settling down, and yet, all I can think of was my pregnancy scare this September and how glad I was when my suspicions were dashed.
It's just an odd day, especially since before her decision to tip me off about her breeding, I thought of Rob. This guy I met once that had gone out with a friend many years ago. Rob killed himself last year because he thought he had hurt someone he cared about, when in all reality she just passed out. It only hit me now that this was a living, breathing person that I had come in contact with once... and now he's gone. It's just an odd sensation.
Time to go out for a long hike before work and have a few smokes and think over these matters.
Tuesday, November 24, 2009
Friday, November 20, 2009
It's a cold goodbye
A few months ago, there would have been a friendship that could have been salvaged, but the choices that were made has set that possibility further and further into the "improbable" state.
Now, I'm tired of holding a place open for them, especially since now that I look at the old situation and realize that they were anything but good for me. Thankfully I have a considerate boyfriend who allowed me to hold on to those things without forcing me to let go, but now I know that it's time.
Every file, every photo...
Every word, and every tear...
Gone.
I am happy now, and I feel so relieved that they didn't bring me down with them. So many opportunities opened up to me since their abandonment and I had the opportunity to do things for myself because I wanted to, without having to consult anyone.
With everything gone, soon my memories will follow and it will be as if it never was and though I dislike having regrets, I will admit that of everything I could hate for what it's done, it would be him. So with that, here it is, this is my goodbye.
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In other news: I'm going to purge this Blog within the week and start afresh, plus you'll find a second blog devoted solely to the crazy antics that ensue from overnight work.
Now, I'm tired of holding a place open for them, especially since now that I look at the old situation and realize that they were anything but good for me. Thankfully I have a considerate boyfriend who allowed me to hold on to those things without forcing me to let go, but now I know that it's time.
Every file, every photo...
Every word, and every tear...
Gone.
I am happy now, and I feel so relieved that they didn't bring me down with them. So many opportunities opened up to me since their abandonment and I had the opportunity to do things for myself because I wanted to, without having to consult anyone.
With everything gone, soon my memories will follow and it will be as if it never was and though I dislike having regrets, I will admit that of everything I could hate for what it's done, it would be him. So with that, here it is, this is my goodbye.
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In other news: I'm going to purge this Blog within the week and start afresh, plus you'll find a second blog devoted solely to the crazy antics that ensue from overnight work.
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